Wednesday, March 23, 2011
I am a pretty BIG deal
It occurs to me, quite regularly, how easy it is to feel incompetent as a mother. As a wife. As head of a household (which, I know, husbands & fathers feel is their job, but, let's be real. We all know who's keeping the Titanic from hittin' an iceberg)
I constantly walk around consumed with the feeling that I can't provide, keep up, compare. The fact that I am inept must be blatantly obvious to all outside observers. I might as well wear a flashing sign on my shirt that says "LOSER".
I'm not a MILF. My youth is fleeting (and I do use the word *youth* loosely). My body has literally flown south for the winter (and will probably never migrate north again). My cuticles are in complete dissrepair. I haven't had any kind of *spa experience* since 2008. My favorite ensemble is a pair of fleece pants and an old t-shirt (complete with holes). I am not UP on the current trends. I couldn't even tell you what movies are in the theaters right now.
But, then, comes a moment of clarity. A moment that makes me stop. Take a deep breath. And smile..........I am completely necessary to the 3 people I love most in this world.
Without me, my husband would not be able to find his toothbrush, a bar of soap, his belt, a bandaid, the front door........
My children wouldn't have clean clothes, a hot meal, a referee, a boo-boo kisser, a tushie wiper, an activities director, a cheerleader or a voice of reason.
To them, I could rope the moon. I could turn coal into diamonds..............I might as well be Gandhi.
Nobody loves them like I do. And no one will ever love me, or need me, the way they do.
To the world, I am just one person. But to these 3 people..... who hold my heart....... I am the world.
And I think that's pretty cool.