In My Daughter's Eyes.......

".....In my daughter's eyes, I am a hero.
I am strong and wise, and I know no fear.
But the truth is plain to see, she was sent to rescue me,
I see who I want be, in my daughter's eyes....."

It is so hard to believe that you are TWO years old today.

I remember the TWO years I prayed for another baby to bless our family.  Twenty-four months of disappointment and loss of hope.  Feeling as if something was missing from our lives.  All along, it was you.

I remember the day I found out you were coming.  June 28th, 2008.  The same day we arrived in our new home state.  After a weeks drive across the country.  Leaving the only home we knew, to start all over and give our family a better life. 

Almost four months after I kissed my own mother goodbye, for the last time.

Yes, God knew what he was doing.  Waiting to bless us with you.  He knew we both needed an extra special guardian angel watching over us.  Some days, I'm not sure if it is more for your protection, or mine.  Some days, I know she's watching over both of us.  Laughing at the similarities she must see. 

".....In my daughter's eyes, everyone is equal, Darkness turns to light,
And the world is at peace. This miracle God gave to me,
gives me strength when I am weak.
I find reason to believe, in my daughter's eyes......."

I remember how sick I was during my pregnancy with you.  How you tried to make your entrance into this world 8 weeks too early.  Causing both of us to end up in the hospital.  Praying to God to get us through.  I remember having a severe reaction to the medicine they were giving me, going into early cardiac arrest, feeling the world around me go black, and in my mind thinking over and over ....................."don't let her die.  don't let her die.  take me.  but, don't let her die".

As if a dramatic entrance wasn't enough for you, you continued your reign through your first year of life.  Causing several visits to the doctor & hospital.  911 calls.  Anesthetic procedures, special medications, an abundance of medical bills.....all to find out you have a rare auto-immune disorder.  Of course.  That is just your style.  Just like a little, pink diamond............ rare and expensive.

"....And when she wraps her hand around my finger, Oh, it puts a smile in my heart.
Everything becomes a little clearer. I realize what life is all about.
It's hangin' on when your heart has had enough; 

It's givin' more when you feel like givin' up.
I've seen the light. It's in my daughter's eyes....."

You never let us forget your presence.  Never let us forget how brightly you shine.  Your laugh is infectious and magical.  You have the power to bring a smile to everyone who looks into your beautiful blue eyes.

I hope you never lose your spark.  Your tenacity.  Your sense of humor.  

I hope you never forget just how special and loved you are.  How much you were wanted and prayed for.

Happy 2nd Birthday to the little girl who keeps me on my toes.  Makes me cry.  Makes me laugh.  Makes me want to scream.  Brings me such joy.  Melts my heart.
Daily.  

Life with you will never be boring, that is for certain.

And I can't imagine my world without you in it.

"In my daughter's eyes, I can see the future.
A reflection of who I am,
And what will be.
And though she'll grow and, some day, leave:
Maybe raise a family,
When I'm gone, I hope you'll see,
How happy she made me,
For I'll be there, in my daughter's eyes"