Wednesday, November 16, 2011
"Words of Wisdom" Wednesday....kinda
Okay, so I really can't stand when people blog/brag/Facebook about the fact that they've finally dropped that 30lbs of "baby" weight.....(and their baby is 6 months old). My "baby" is 2 1/2 years old. Shut. Up. I already have enough reasons to hate myself, and your glory is making me feel even worse about my own laziness.
There. I said it. Phew.
Why, you ask, am I so bitter?? Well, it's an ugly green monster people. Jealousy. (Save it. I already know I'm a terrible person). And if I'm being honest, I don't begrudge anybody happiness. Or health. I'm the reason I'm overweight (and, yes, technically, on the BMI scale, I am overweight. It's a frightening concept) I completely own that.
I snack when I'm stressed. I snack when I'm bored. I eat because I like food.
What I'm trying to learn is the difference between necessity and desire.
And I think I'm getting close! I've lost 6 pounds in the last 5 weeks. Okay, so maybe that's not so great, but, I was able to button my jeans this morning without having to practice any oxygen deprivation techniques. And if that's not a victory, I don't know what is.
I'm still able to enjoy coffee, wine, and all the things I normally like to eat. I just do so in moderation (I know, it's an ugly word, but it had to be said).
I'm certainly not perfect. I have encouraging days, and days I wanna say EFF it !! But, I'm only human. One day at a time.
I try to set myself up for success first thing in the morning. It doesn't always end up that way, but I'm getting there. Slowly. I actually enjoy working out (*gulp*) because I know it's a means to an end. The more calories I burn off, the more I can consume. Get it? I know, I'm like a genius or something (*wink wink*).
My intention is to let those of you out there who are struggling with the same thing (and I read your blogs. I know who you are), it can be done. Don't beat yourself up. It's not going to happen overnight.
Or in my case, very fast, apparently.
Okay, now I'm depressed about it again. Ugh. Where's the wine.